Peace. What does that mean?
This is my question in this hard time of wondering …
I could lose it, that’s for sure.
But is there really any benefit in that?
Of course not.
I have heard that it is in the hard times
that true character is revealed.
I am hoping that my true character
is stronger than I feel.
I’ve always wanted to be independent.
I’ve never wanted to rely on a man as a way to live.
A beautiful, baby girl changed all that!
I am no longer able to be an island.
I have to depend on other’s to survive
both emotionally and financially.
That was fine, I was actually coming to terms with that …
Until my husband lost his job.
Now I am faced with the fact that as unjust as it is,
my husband’s earning potential is larger than mine.
It’s hard for me to come to terms with that.
I want to jump in and save the day, but I can’t.
I can’t for two reasons,
One: my income is not enough,
Two: I can’t imagine being away from my baby for 40+ hrs.
All that being said …
Somewhere in all this I have to find a place of Peace
I have to know that it will all work out.
Life has ups and downs,
but somehow we are always ok.
And even though I don’t see it right now,
there is an answer and there is a reason in all of this.