Today I have been contemplating the ending of a year and the beginning of a new one – In a similar way, one chapter of my life is ending and another is beginning. I committed to authenticity this year, it was my “one little word” for the year. It required deep soul searching, gut wrenching life decisions, and drastic changes. Now that sounds kinda awful and in some ways it was/is. However, along the journey, I also found true courage, moments of joy, unexpected grace, and new beginnings. It has not been easy but it has been worth it.
The only way that we can live, is if we grow. The only way that we can grow is if we change. The only way that we can change is if we learn. The only way we can learn is if we are exposed. And the only way that we can become exposed is if we throw ourselves out into the open. Do it. Throw yourself. ― C. JoyBell C.
In a conversation I had recently, it was pointed out to me that I am currently “under renovation.” This is something that I am holding onto in many ways. If you have ever been through a renovation, you know that things never go as planned and that the process always takes longer than projected. Despite the chaos and mess involved though, the end product is always worth it; a new and improved version of what was there before. I have often heard the phrase “the house has good bones;” to me, that has always meant that a home has great potential for beauty, given some time and attention. I think life is like that; every life has “good bones” and the potential for beauty, it’s just a matter of being willing to embrace the pain of “renovation,” while holding onto the knowledge that it will all be worth it in the end.
I am reminded of the Japanese philosophy, wabi-sabi – the art of imperfection.
Wabi-sabi finds beauty in imperfection and profundity in nature, accepting the cycle of growth, decay and death. It’s slow and uncluttered, and regards authenticity above all. Wabi-sabi is flea markets, not warehouse stores; aged wood, not laminate. Minimalist wabi-sabi respects age and celebrates humans over invulnerable machines. It finds beauty in cracks and crevices and all the marks that time, weather and use leave behind. It reminds us that we are transient beings — that our bodies and the material world around us are in the process of returning to the dust from which they came. Through wabi-sabi, we learn to embrace both the glory and the impersonal sadness of liver spots, rust and frayed edges, and the march of time they represent. – Robin Griggs Lawrence
Wabi-sabi, creating beauty from imperfection and brokenness.
I am thankful for so many blessings throughout this journey of life, but most of all I am grateful for those who have willingly and still willingly, stand by me in moments of joy as well as through moments of breakdown. They are somehow able to see that there is still “beauty in the breakdown.”
“So, let go, let go,
Oh well, what you waiting for?
It’s all right,
‘Cause there’s beauty in the breakdown
So, let go, let go.”
Wishing you a Beautifully Imperfect 2014!