My beliefs have always been something deeply personal to me. I find them hard to express to those who “believe” and to those who don’t; because they are my own, not shaped by a specific affiliation, they can be misunderstood or disregarded. I think more often than not, when you believe in something deeply, passionately, and unreservedly it can be daunting to others who either do not believe or whose own beliefs are challenged by yours. As for me, personally, I am not threatened by what others may or may not believe, this is my walk and only I need to be at peace with my path. The journey here has been a long one, one filled with many questions and doubts. I have experienced a shift in beliefs more than once and have found continued enlightenment along the way as I have opened my heart fully to listen and learn.
One of the main things that I have come to understand is this, if you are scared to open your mind to a change in your beliefs than your beliefs are not that solid. Fear is the greatest inhibitor of growth. I determined some time ago to open my mind to the possibility of change – I wanted to be able to stand solid in my core beliefs while still allowing myself to see things from another point of view. I am not scared of changing the way I think; I am well aware that I am not an expert and that I don’t know everything. I want growth, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually and that requires facing down the fear of the unknown even if it rocks me to my core.
I recently stumbled across a blog by Micah Murray, Redemption Pictures, and his writings have resonated with me deeply. He writes the raw, the real, and with great thought and depth. I have been inspired, encouraged, and comforted by his words. Lately, I have found that I am feeling the need to stop censoring myself when it comes to what I really believe and how I really feel. Micah touches on this in one of his entries:
“I’m done with writing from the heart and then hitting backspace until it feels safe again. I’m not going to sit here and talk like I’ve arrived, like I don’t feel completely lost sometimes, like every day isn’t a journey. But I’m stumbling in the direction of God, I think. I hope.”
That is my hope as well, that I am stumbling in the right direction. I have always followed Love. At the core of everything that I believe, if it doesn’t scream “LOVE!,” then it is not something that I can accept or follow. So today and everyday, my path will be guided by Love and Acceptance. All are welcome, all are cherished – we all belong.
I believe in the God of love & light
In the One who surrounds and engulfs and envelopes you as a whole
A whole being, just as you are
Just as you were made
In an unending Ocean of Love
Where drowning is the ultimate end
And the place where a heart can truly begin
Oh the vastness, the greatness, the richness of this Love
That not one can comprehend, prevent, or box in
It is beyond a wildest dream, it is as tender as the hearts deepest wish
Why are you afraid?
You have been led to believe it can’t be this good
You have been told it never could
Yet there it is, this Love
In the deepest parts of you
Hidden and obscured by lies and abuse, yet unchanged
Unchanged, unending, unfathomable, yet completely yours
This God of pure Love
Sets you free to let go, to give in,
To enter the safest place you’ll ever know
The Depths of Love
Let Go of Fear, Breathe in the Love