Changes

Look at all these changes

Coming like the tides

To wash away the vestage

of another life

Cleaning out the closets

Where my old soul used to dwell

Taking me on a journey

Deep inside myself

I am unsettled, undone, unknown

Forced awakening

Bitter truths and sweet memories collide

Like waves crashing on my souls shore

Washing away the imprints

of certainty and order

Splintered – slate heart wiped clean

Waiting, waiting

For the next composition

 

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Hand in Hand 

I loved you

Despite your broken wings

Because I knew

What it was like to be a broken thing

All the ways you didn’t make sense

We’re OK by me

Because I didn’t make sense either

So for once I felt free

We tried so hard

In ways no one quite understood

We were labeled lazy, we were labeled crazy

Together we stood

But I don’t understand you

And you don’t understand me

And this connection we’ve made

Feels like a stormy sea

Tell me now dear, do we have what it takes

To move beyond the need to understand

And find the deeper meaning of simply

Walking hand in hand

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The Moments

It was in the moments

That I found life

Unfolding.

And I had to stop, take a deep breath

So that I didn’t miss

The beauty.

Then I understood

That hard times are just life’s way

Of forcing the slow down.

On the happiness high

You miss a lot.

In a state of euphoria,

You overlook the details

and yet …

The beauty is in the detail.

All the tiny pieces,

Collecting in a heart,

To tell their very own story

Of Life and Love

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Love & Light

I don’t write about Faith very often anymore. I have had a Faith Shift and have been grappling with what I believe as it has been evolving. I grew up in such a strict, religious environment and now I don’t even attend church. It’s not that I’ve lost my belief in God, rather I’ve lost my faith in organized religion.

I am sure many people I used to know think that I’ve “fallen away” or “lost sight of my calling.” But the truth is, in these past couple of years I haven’t fallen away, rather I have fallen into the Wastefulness of Grace.

Dealing with my divorce has probably been one of the most crucial turning points for me. Finding God in the midst of it all has been so very difficult and yet breathtaking at the same time. Knowing that His love surpasses my brokenness is astonishing and freeing and healing.

And I am still trying to figure it all out and I still don’t fully know what I believe about religion anymore but I have never felt more at ease about who God is and the vastness of His love for me. There’s no fear in Love because Perfect Love casts out all fear.

There’s a reason for the Journey, There is purpose in the learning … We’re getting there.

– Steffany Gretzinger

I believe in the God of love & light

In the One who surrounds and engulfs and envelopes you as a whole

A whole being, just as you are

Just as you were made

In an unending Ocean of Love

Where drowning is the ultimate end

And the place where a heart can truly begin

Oh the vastness, the greatness, the richness of this Love

That not one can comprehend, prevent, or box in

It is beyond a wildest dream, it is as tender as the hearts deepest wish

Why are you afraid?

You have been led to believe it can’t be this good

You have been told it never could

Cover you

Yet there it is, this Love In the deepest parts of you

Hidden and obscured by lies and abuse, yet unchanged

Unchanged, unending, unfathomable, yet completely yours

This God of pure Love

Sets you free to let go, to give in, to enter the safest place you’ll ever know

The Depths of Love

– Leah Perez

I Adore You

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Sometimes these days seem

Too hard

The changes tossing us back and forth

Like a ship on a turbulent sea

Moments fly by far too quickly

Breaking my heart

I long for days past, sweet memories

When the world was just you and me

The tide has changed for us and yet …

Love remains even when we’re apart

I ADORE You

I LOVE You

You are my world

The song in my heart

The reason I keep on

We are STRONGER than this

We are BRAVER than this

We

Will

Be

Ok

We will find a new way …

Love you darling girl,

Xo

Mama

Reckless Heart

I will not stop giving my heart away

Recklessly

I will not stop loving with everything

I have

I will embrace this gut wrenching pain

I will take it and run with it

I will breath it in as fuel

To power my journey

It is the force that pushes me forward

Outside of myself

Into places I never thought I could go

It’s terrifying

The plunge that my heart continues to take

But it gives me life at its fullest

It spills over and washes my world

In full color

It allows me to see life

In all its bittersweet glory

And I’ll come to last leg of this journey

Knowing that I never gave just a little

There was no half way

And the reward will be in knowing

That there is no regret in love

Only brokenness made beautiful in the end

Change Is the Only Way

I’ve learned to never stay down too long

I get back up, I pick myself up

I smile

Not a fake smile, not a pasted on smile

An assured smile

Because life keeps turning

I keep learning

Change is the only way I know how to grow

Maybe I like the pain now

It inspires me, it motivates me, it moves me

So I look up at the Sun

And I drink in the beauty of this broken thing we call life

And know in my heart

It was not a mistake, it never is, it was the process

And I trust the process

It takes me where I need to be

When I’m too wrapped up in what I want it to be

Every time I fall

It’s the vast sky I look up to see

And I know life has a long road ahead for me

Even in the darkness

There’s such beauty

So raw, so real, so deep

And I realize I was too distracted to see

What was right there in front of me

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Onward & Upward, Always … xo 

Leah 

 

Take Me Back

Take me back to the time when you were all mine …

Comforted only by the warmth of my body, the beat of my heart

Those precious moments in time before you could speak

But yet you somehow spoke volumes to me

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Now I look at you, beautiful you

And a little sadness creeps in as you run away

You’re only heading off to play

But still it’s hard to let go even in the small things

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You take life by force, without fear

And I am frustrated yet so very proud

Growing, becoming, laughing, yelling,

Being You

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Dancing through your days, with dreams all your own

Imaginary tales with such creative plots

A sense of humor beyond your years

Fills our home with laughter

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It breaks my heart and fills it at the same time

You are my best girl, girl of mine

You will always be

The sweetest gift ever given to me

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