Look at all these changes
Coming like the tides
To wash away the vestage
of another life
Cleaning out the closets
Where my old soul used to dwell
Taking me on a journey
Deep inside myself
I am unsettled, undone, unknown
Forced awakening
Bitter truths and sweet memories collide
Like waves crashing on my souls shore
Washing away the imprints
of certainty and order
Splintered – slate heart wiped clean
Waiting, waiting
For the next composition
l.perez
I loved you
Despite your broken wings
Because I knew
What it was like to be a broken thing
All the ways you didn’t make sense
We’re OK by me
Because I didn’t make sense either
So for once I felt free
We tried so hard
In ways no one quite understood
We were labeled lazy, we were labeled crazy
Together we stood
But I don’t understand you
And you don’t understand me
And this connection we’ve made
Feels like a stormy sea
Tell me now dear, do we have what it takes
To move beyond the need to understand
And find the deeper meaning of simply
Walking hand in hand
l.perez
In life, There will always be
Heartache and pain
But you have a choice,
You can choose to shut joy out
Or you can choose to let love in
When you let love in,
You will find the beauty
That can only be present
When you allow joy and sadness
To coincide
That is where the magic happens
L. Perez
It was in the moments
That I found life
Unfolding.
And I had to stop, take a deep breath
So that I didn’t miss
The beauty.
Then I understood
That hard times are just life’s way
Of forcing the slow down.
On the happiness high
You miss a lot.
In a state of euphoria,
You overlook the details
and yet …
The beauty is in the detail.
All the tiny pieces,
Collecting in a heart,
To tell their very own story
Of Life and Love
l.perez
Be Brave
With your heart
Your life
Your words
You owe it to yourself
You owe it to us
We’re quietly waiting for you to shine
It was never suppose to be perfect
Who you are is enough
L. Perez
I don’t write about Faith very often anymore. I have had a Faith Shift and have been grappling with what I believe as it has been evolving. I grew up in such a strict, religious environment and now I don’t even attend church. It’s not that I’ve lost my belief in God, rather I’ve lost my faith in organized religion.
I am sure many people I used to know think that I’ve “fallen away” or “lost sight of my calling.” But the truth is, in these past couple of years I haven’t fallen away, rather I have fallen into the Wastefulness of Grace.
Dealing with my divorce has probably been one of the most crucial turning points for me. Finding God in the midst of it all has been so very difficult and yet breathtaking at the same time. Knowing that His love surpasses my brokenness is astonishing and freeing and healing.
And I am still trying to figure it all out and I still don’t fully know what I believe about religion anymore but I have never felt more at ease about who God is and the vastness of His love for me. There’s no fear in Love because Perfect Love casts out all fear.
“There’s a reason for the Journey, There is purpose in the learning … We’re getting there.”
– Steffany Gretzinger
I believe in the God of love & light
In the One who surrounds and engulfs and envelopes you as a whole
A whole being, just as you are
Just as you were made
In an unending Ocean of Love
Where drowning is the ultimate end
And the place where a heart can truly begin
Oh the vastness, the greatness, the richness of this Love
That not one can comprehend, prevent, or box in
It is beyond a wildest dream, it is as tender as the hearts deepest wish
Why are you afraid?
You have been led to believe it can’t be this good
You have been told it never could
Cover you
Yet there it is, this Love In the deepest parts of you
Hidden and obscured by lies and abuse, yet unchanged
Unchanged, unending, unfathomable, yet completely yours
This God of pure Love
Sets you free to let go, to give in, to enter the safest place you’ll ever know
The Depths of Love
– Leah Perez
Sometimes these days seem
Too hard
The changes tossing us back and forth
Like a ship on a turbulent sea
Moments fly by far too quickly
Breaking my heart
I long for days past, sweet memories
When the world was just you and me
The tide has changed for us and yet …
Love remains even when we’re apart
I ADORE You
I LOVE You
You are my world
The song in my heart
The reason I keep on
We are STRONGER than this
We are BRAVER than this
We
Will
Be
Ok
We will find a new way …
Love you darling girl,
Xo
Mama
I will not stop giving my heart away
Recklessly
I will not stop loving with everything
I have
I will embrace this gut wrenching pain
I will take it and run with it
I will breath it in as fuel
To power my journey
It is the force that pushes me forward
Outside of myself
Into places I never thought I could go
It’s terrifying
The plunge that my heart continues to take
But it gives me life at its fullest
It spills over and washes my world
In full color
It allows me to see life
In all its bittersweet glory
And I’ll come to last leg of this journey
Knowing that I never gave just a little
There was no half way
And the reward will be in knowing
That there is no regret in love
Only brokenness made beautiful in the end
I’ve learned to never stay down too long
I get back up, I pick myself up
I smile
Not a fake smile, not a pasted on smile
An assured smile
Because life keeps turning
I keep learning
Change is the only way I know how to grow
Maybe I like the pain now
It inspires me, it motivates me, it moves me
So I look up at the Sun
And I drink in the beauty of this broken thing we call life
And know in my heart
It was not a mistake, it never is, it was the process
And I trust the process
It takes me where I need to be
When I’m too wrapped up in what I want it to be
Every time I fall
It’s the vast sky I look up to see
And I know life has a long road ahead for me
Even in the darkness
There’s such beauty
So raw, so real, so deep
And I realize I was too distracted to see
What was right there in front of me
Onward & Upward, Always … xo
Leah
Take me back to the time when you were all mine …
Comforted only by the warmth of my body, the beat of my heart
Those precious moments in time before you could speak
But yet you somehow spoke volumes to me
Now I look at you, beautiful you
And a little sadness creeps in as you run away
You’re only heading off to play
But still it’s hard to let go even in the small things
You take life by force, without fear
And I am frustrated yet so very proud
Growing, becoming, laughing, yelling,
Being You
Dancing through your days, with dreams all your own
Imaginary tales with such creative plots
A sense of humor beyond your years
Fills our home with laughter
This love so strong,
It breaks my heart and fills it at the same time
You are my best girl, girl of mine
You will always be
The sweetest gift ever given to me
