What do we hide from?
We hide from the things we fear.
What do we hide from others?
We hide the deepest truth of our hearts.
We live in a constant state of fear and scarcity, never believing that there will be enough to go around, enough to cover it all. We hold ourselves back from truly diving into life and living authentically because we’re afraid we won’t be accepted as we are or that love is somehow a limited resource that we will lose. So instead, we paint on a face that we think will satisfy the “thems” and “theys” and quietly let our truths and dreams die inside.
But when will the defining moment, or the defiance moment, be the turning point that sets you free? It’s up to you. You are the only one who can decide to look fear in the face and move past it. You are the only one who can choose to push past the discomfort of owning your truth and shed the skin of your pretense to become the person you’re truly meant to be.
It’s in learning to let go of preconceived ideas, subconscious baggage, and the knee jerk response to control that you will find the deepest levels of growth. The only person you own is yourself. The only person you can control is yourself. When we stop trying to control things from a place of fear, we can begin to live from a place of authenticity and experience life in its fullest and most beautiful form.
On the other side of fear is your freedom.
I will not stop giving my heart away
I will not stop loving with everything
I will embrace this gut wrenching pain
I will take it and run with it
I will breath it in as fuel
To power my journey
It is the force that pushes me forward
Outside of myself
Into places I never thought I could go
The plunge that my heart continues to take
But it gives me life at its fullest
It spills over and washes my world
In full color
It allows me to see life
In all its bittersweet glory
And I’ll come to last leg of this journey
Knowing that I never gave just a little
There was no half way
And the reward will be in knowing
That there is no regret in love
Only brokenness made beautiful in the end
This is one of my favorite sketches; that is my brain … ALL THE TIME!
I have begun to consider the implications of how my whirling mind keeps me from living in the present moment … I am always thinking, planning, over analyzing. How can I even begin to live in the present if my mind is everywhere else?
My journey lately has led me down a path of mindfulness and learning to control my emotions. I am reminded time and again that I have a choice – I can allow circumstances and uncertainties to cloud my vision and keep my mind spinning out of control or I can take the time to quiet my mind, take a deep breath, and stop to see the beautiful life that surrounds me.
Life is always changing, always moving. You can go with the flow or go kicking and screaming; either way you are moving forward so why not choose to do so with grace and joy?
So my challenge for myself, my challenge for you – BE HERE NOW!
BE HERE NOW in mindfulness, with joy, and embrace the beauty of life even in the moments where beauty seems hard to find. Stop thinking, start living!
“To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all.”
― Oscar Wilde