After

Disappointment

Chokes my words, closes my throat

Sadness

The heart aches, in the deepest place

The overflow drowns my clarity

Of all the years and along every road

I have held so tightly to this HOPE

That in everything there is purpose

In everything there is meaning

But I feel my fingers slipping

I feel myself losing the battle

After …

Fighting so hard

Fighting so long

Have I always been wrong?

 

 

 

I Wish You Could See

I wish you could see

All that I see in you

I want to find a way to

Connect the dots

So that you can find the path

To loving yourself

You sit under such a heavy weight

You bear so great a burden

Let love soothe your soul

Though your mind

Is chaos and turmoil

My love is steady and true

I can’t erase the damage

I can’t undo the pain

But I can sit here with you

And love you all the way through

l. perez

 

Sometimes

Sometimes

I still dream about you

And it feels so real

I wake up with a heartache

The memories

Pull me in too deep

Till I feel like I’m losing air

My heart hasn’t caught up

With what my head knows

It all came crashing down

And like my dreams end

You are no longer there

If I could taste the magic again

I would

Even if it ended exactly the same

I still would

l. perez

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Sometimes I write bits and pieces here and there. I save them to my iPhone notes until I can either finish the thought or am ready to share the thought. This poem is one of those pieces that I came across today – I think sometimes I have to allow the emotion to pass before I am able to share what I was thinking at the time. When the edges have worn down a bit, that’s when I can release it. Almost as if I am letting go with words. 

Artificial Heart

Puppet strings

and shiny things

A shallow attempt to hide

your artificial  heart

Expectations are your puppeteer

as you grin ear to ear

A hallow attempt to be

anything but who you are

You live in this suspended state

Awaiting some different fate

But when will you realize that only you

can sever the ties

That keep your truth locked

deep inside

Ending this robotic dance

of leaving your destiny in someone else hands

 

via Daily Prompt: Artificial

In Light of the Full Moon

It’s just the moon talking

Don’t listen

To its sad tale of waxing and waning

Think instead of the

Steady Sun

That rises and sets

With each passing day

Through all the seasons that come

Take heart

That you too are of the Sun

Full of beauty and light

Though at times

The light is unseen

It remains still

To rise again over the darkness

 

l.perez

Hand in Hand 

I loved you

Despite your broken wings

Because I knew

What it was like to be a broken thing

All the ways you didn’t make sense

We’re OK by me

Because I didn’t make sense either

So for once I felt free

We tried so hard

In ways no one quite understood

We were labeled lazy, we were labeled crazy

Together we stood

But I don’t understand you

And you don’t understand me

And this connection we’ve made

Feels like a stormy sea

Tell me now dear, do we have what it takes

To move beyond the need to understand

And find the deeper meaning of simply

Walking hand in hand

l.perez

Change Is the Only Way

I’ve learned to never stay down too long

I get back up, I pick myself up

I smile

Not a fake smile, not a pasted on smile

An assured smile

Because life keeps turning

I keep learning

Change is the only way I know how to grow

Maybe I like the pain now

It inspires me, it motivates me, it moves me

So I look up at the Sun

And I drink in the beauty of this broken thing we call life

And know in my heart

It was not a mistake, it never is, it was the process

And I trust the process

It takes me where I need to be

When I’m too wrapped up in what I want it to be

Every time I fall

It’s the vast sky I look up to see

And I know life has a long road ahead for me

Even in the darkness

There’s such beauty

So raw, so real, so deep

And I realize I was too distracted to see

What was right there in front of me

Image

Onward & Upward, Always … xo 

Leah