Disappointment
Chokes my words, closes my throat
Sadness
The heart aches, in the deepest place
The overflow drowns my clarity
Of all the years and along every road
I have held so tightly to this HOPE
That in everything there is purpose
In everything there is meaning
But I feel my fingers slipping
I feel myself losing the battle
After …
Fighting so hard
Fighting so long
Have I always been wrong?
I wish you could see
All that I see in you
I want to find a way to
Connect the dots
So that you can find the path
To loving yourself
You sit under such a heavy weight
You bear so great a burden
Let love soothe your soul
Though your mind
Is chaos and turmoil
My love is steady and true
I can’t erase the damage
I can’t undo the pain
But I can sit here with you
And love you all the way through
l. perez
Sometimes
I still dream about you
And it feels so real
I wake up with a heartache
The memories
Pull me in too deep
Till I feel like I’m losing air
My heart hasn’t caught up
With what my head knows
It all came crashing down
And like my dreams end
You are no longer there
If I could taste the magic again
I would
Even if it ended exactly the same
I still would
l. perez
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Sometimes I write bits and pieces here and there. I save them to my iPhone notes until I can either finish the thought or am ready to share the thought. This poem is one of those pieces that I came across today – I think sometimes I have to allow the emotion to pass before I am able to share what I was thinking at the time. When the edges have worn down a bit, that’s when I can release it. Almost as if I am letting go with words.
Puppet strings
and shiny things
A shallow attempt to hide
your artificial heart
Expectations are your puppeteer
as you grin ear to ear
A hallow attempt to be
anything but who you are
You live in this suspended state
Awaiting some different fate
But when will you realize that only you
can sever the ties
That keep your truth locked
deep inside
Ending this robotic dance
of leaving your destiny in someone else hands
It’s just the moon talking
Don’t listen
To its sad tale of waxing and waning
Think instead of the
Steady Sun
That rises and sets
With each passing day
Through all the seasons that come
Take heart
That you too are of the Sun
Full of beauty and light
Though at times
The light is unseen
It remains still
To rise again over the darkness
l.perez
I loved you
Despite your broken wings
Because I knew
What it was like to be a broken thing
All the ways you didn’t make sense
We’re OK by me
Because I didn’t make sense either
So for once I felt free
We tried so hard
In ways no one quite understood
We were labeled lazy, we were labeled crazy
Together we stood
But I don’t understand you
And you don’t understand me
And this connection we’ve made
Feels like a stormy sea
Tell me now dear, do we have what it takes
To move beyond the need to understand
And find the deeper meaning of simply
Walking hand in hand
l.perez
I’ve learned to never stay down too long
I get back up, I pick myself up
I smile
Not a fake smile, not a pasted on smile
An assured smile
Because life keeps turning
I keep learning
Change is the only way I know how to grow
Maybe I like the pain now
It inspires me, it motivates me, it moves me
So I look up at the Sun
And I drink in the beauty of this broken thing we call life
And know in my heart
It was not a mistake, it never is, it was the process
And I trust the process
It takes me where I need to be
When I’m too wrapped up in what I want it to be
Every time I fall
It’s the vast sky I look up to see
And I know life has a long road ahead for me
Even in the darkness
There’s such beauty
So raw, so real, so deep
And I realize I was too distracted to see
What was right there in front of me
Onward & Upward, Always … xo
Leah
